It seems that on every jnX mission trip, someone (especially Anthony Chan!) will get injured in one way or another, whether it be wounds, burns, illnesses, or stolen laptops. We would come back with scars and share these “war stories” for years to come.
If I had to sum up one of the most important lessons that I’d been learning with jnX throughout the years, it would be a lesson in flexibility.
We have this running joke with the team that we’d be lucky to get the worship set of songs from Anthony 30 minutes before we start.
Even now God still gives me tests at different stages to challenge my confidence….I can often feel my strength is not enough, or wonder if I have misheard God’s voice? A few years ago, God spoke to me again, and exhorted me to join the jnX family.
I wrote the lyrics for the song “I’m Willing To Be Broken” during the time when I felt the most helpless and miserable; yet, it was also/exactly when God broke and re-formed me the most.
Sometimes, you can be your greatest enemy. Satan is very good at tricking you with lies. Growing up singing, friends often assumed that I had a lot of confidence and enjoyed being the center of attention.
One time, when I was serving at a church worship event in China with jnX, there was an elderly pianist practicing. She was playing the piano so forcefully that the keys were about to break. The pianist only used one tonic chord to accompany the entire hymn. With what I saw and heard, I could not help but burst out laughing.
This past October, I had the opportunity to provide training for choir members from 41 churches in an farming community in China. It was too impractical logistically for me to train every choir member, so each church selected the 2 most skilled members as representatives to come and learn.
Getting started is always the hardest part. Yet, when we look back in life, isn’t it true that the times we overcome the feeling of “I can’t” or “I’ve never done this before” are also the times we end up growing and experiencing major breakthroughs?